It may not have been the best start but it was a start nonetheless.
And now I can move on to other things knowing that I took my chance.
I see it not as failure but as a sort of bitter success that I shall look back on and never regret.
Love was not meant for me. There are other things to embrace and I shall do my best in this life.
I feel almost godlike. I can make my life what I want it to be.