When the calm go crazy...

4:14pm: Oh my GAWD.
Ever since the first time I watched How I Met Your Mother it has been the funniest and most legen-

-wait for it-

-and I hope you're not lactose intolerant because the second part of that word is-

DARY (!) show I have ever seen.

Then one day I downloaded an episode that just wasn't as funny.

But today I watched episodes 19 and 20 of season 4 and HOLY CRAPSTICKS. I laughed so hard I cried!

Excerpt:

Marshall: "Hey, Food Guy!"

Barney: "Hey, Toy Guy!"

Marshall: "Who's that guy?"

Barney: "He doesn't work here. I think we should leave the building."

Marshall: "Really?"

Barney: "This has happened before."

I'm still laughing half an hour later just thinking about it!

10:22pm: Tracing pathways through the nerves of my consciousness
Indeed, today was the day.

It was the day that I felt winter approaching.
The season I have come to loathe.

In other news, good and at the same time somewhat disturbing, Neil Patrick Harris starred in Law and Order: Criminal Intent.
He played.... well, he played me to the extreme. It was a different role to what he usually does. It was so sad and lonely. He pulled it off though.
I feel like that could have been me, the character he played. And it makes me fear the future. It makes me fear doing anything at all because accidents can happen, mistakes can be made, things might never be safe again.

But oh well.

3:20pm: Winning and losing
That's what life is about. And today.... I won!

Some things you blog about, some you don't. I'm not going to go into great depth but let us just say.... time has not done someone any favours with regards to appearance and yet it seems to have gifted ME with awesome good looks. ME, of all people. I WIN.

Of course looks are still not everything but, honestly, do you want to date someone ugly? :D

5:51pm: What a day!
At least the kicking of my brother is now a guiltless affair. He stole my French toast! The bugger.
Plus I was fucking hungry since I only had 2 slices of toast earlier this morning.

Why did I not eat earlier?
Well, you see, it was raining and thought I would visit my friends at college. Unfortunately I left my lights on. The battery died and I didn't realize the immobilizer was messing everything up so the car wouldn't start.
My friends wouldn't have known about that but they helped me anyway.
I had to call my dad and he figured it out so I got home really late.

It was a good day though. I have a challenge ahead now; should be exciting!
I'm psyched about tomorrow.

Ah, it feels good to have food in me.

11:21am: Spelling
Incorrect spelling annoys me greatly. If they are typos or honest mistakes then I can just correct and let it go.

Then along comes a professional website with a huge link saying "VOTE FOR YOUR FAVOURATE ADS!"

Really.... a drinking yoghurt (or is that yogurt?) company that has text on every label on every bottle and obviously has graphic designers who REALLY SHOULD KNOW HOW TO SPELL.

If we're going to use a language we can at least use it correctly.

2:12pm: And if I had a choice....
I do in some ways.

I had a choice whether to post this here or on.... Facebook. I decided here was better since Facebook is pathetic and the notes function is not taken seriously enough.
It's like MySpace over there. Eurgh.

I've been cleaning out my room, getting rid of old junk and making it look a lot cleaner so I can actually enjoy living in it.

I've come across some odd, interesting and possibly life-altering things.

One: I found a list I wrote about talking. It was probably as punishment but I thought it was an interesting find since I have no memory of ever writing it.

Two: I found some old pieces of art that I have decided to keep and do up nicely in Photoshop. They could be good for my portfolio.

Three: documentation about something fictional that seems to predict our immediate future. I'll be reading through that completely later on.

Four: a schoolbook of my brother's. It must be from grade one or two. In it he wrote, "I don't like it when my brother kicks me." Shit....

Those are the highlights of cleaning out my room. There's been some other stuff but mostly just rubbish that is getting thrown out or recycled.

Now to make another choice....

11:49pm: Three months and I'm still sober....
Three months exactly today since what I thought was a date.

But alas.... fate is not so kind.

And yet angels do return, if you will them to. Then you just have to figure out how to handle a complicated situation.

All around me the world moves and here I sit, as still as a hot windless day. Oh, what to do?

I know the feeling. Now I just have to find someone who gives me the feeling and gets the feeling from me.

*sigh*

Simple spirituality cannot guide us through this weird world. We have to become something other than what we are or were meant to be.

Why am I like this? Why am I different? How can I be the one to change the world?

Too many questions, too little time.

12:16am: Dieter Rabbit
There are actually rabbits called Dieter. How cute is that?!

http://www.saveabunny.org/?q=node/4686

http://uk.myzooclub.com/small-animals/rabbit/ascheberg/dieter/1466175

I wish I could adopt them!

10:26pm: Merry christmas
To those who celebrate it!

To those who don't, merry random day of religious stuff based on paganism!

8:41pm: See me fall, see me rise....
Today I went to the funeral of a definite friend. Obviously I wasn't the one crying as death is not sad to me. It is intensely beautiful to me. It is the only certain thing and part of the process of existing in our universe.

Jason, I bet you're partying it up all over the world tonight and getting spiritually trashed. When I do the same I'll be thinking of you and how you pushed me two years ago so that I would experience severe depression and then realize there was more to life than that and pick myself up, improve myself and come to this point where I can do anything. Thanks buddy! Miss you always.

Forward march!

6:59pm: Discovery
Yes, I have "discovered" a new artist to listen to. I knew about her already but had no clue she could sing.

Introducing the one and only Hayden Panettiere (mostly of Heroes fame). She can sing and makes cool music. It might be girly pop/rock music but it's catchy so I don't give a crap.
The only sucky thing is that as far as I know she hasn't released her solo debut album yet. Come on already! :D

9:44pm: So I really enjoy making mixes....
Yes I do. I've made several, some better than others.

My latest mix tops them all. It's a cheerful one!

Alright, so it starts off on a neutral-leaning-towards-sombre note but it's a sort of prelude to the cheerfulness of the rest of it.

And without further ado here is the tracklist:

1) James Carrington - Ache
2) Remy Zero - Whither Vulcan
3) Pinback - Penelope
4) Spin Doctors - How Could You Want Him (When You Know You Can Have Me)
5) Rascal Flatts - Feels Like Today
6) Peter Gabriel - Solsbury Hill
7) Stars - The First Five Times
8) Jason Mraz - The Remedy
9) Tahiti 80 - Better Days Will Come
10) Kimberley Locke - 8th World Wonder
11) Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment
12) The Reindeer Section - You Are My Joy
13) Hanson - Penny & Me
14) Powderfinger - My Happiness
15) Live - Heaven
16) Modest Mouse - Float On
17) U2 - Beautiful Day

:D

6:56pm: A new journey.
So today was the first day of my new journey.

It may not have been the best start but it was a start nonetheless.

And now I can move on to other things knowing that I took my chance.

I see it not as failure but as a sort of bitter success that I shall look back on and never regret.

Love was not meant for me. There are other things to embrace and I shall do my best in this life.

I feel almost godlike. I can make my life what I want it to be.

7:25pm: Yes.
Tomorrow life takes a turn I could never have foreseen or expected but what an amazing turn it shall be!

Christ, I'm so fucking nervous.

Eep!

12:45am: Two years.
Two years of waiting.

Two years of patience.

Two years of fixing myself.

Two years of changing myself to become who I wanted to be.

Two years of learning.

Two years of moving towards a state of complete happiness.

Two years of passing opportunities by knowing that eventually the right time would come.

Two years have finally led to the greatest time of my life.

5:15pm: I wish I had no brain, I'd be more at home here
I have just read something stupid.

"If you have forests, you’re going to have forest fires."

That is incorrect. Forests don't accidentally catch fire.

If you have people around who throw cigarette butts out of their car windows in places that have vegetation you're going to have forest fires. DUH.

8:03pm: I choose freedom
"We must become the change we want to see in the world" - Mohandas Gandhi

Note the word "we". Not one person but an entire race should come together to escape our prison.

Shun the governments we have as they work to further their own interests, not the interests of the people. We have our best interests at heart and it is up to us to change the world.

8:21pm: Waking up to a perfect world.
"There is a reason that things are alive.
The fields are electric with firefly lights."

Every day is good no matter what happens.

What makes it good is that you're alive and have a chance to do amazing things before you end up dead. Be brave and take chances. Do whatever you want because life is short and you never know when it will end.

Die happy.

2:12pm: Prophecy
Have you ever wanted to tell the future?

Have you ever wanted to enjoy everything like the world was perfect?

You can.

7:32pm: OMG WE CAUZEZ GLOBAL WARMINGZ.
If that's true why the hell is it so cold?

( Why we should worry more about the press and such rather than the weather )

Also: HAPPY SEPTEMBER 11TH!

8:33pm: I see signs now all the time
Yay! Bloc Party's new album Intimacy has been released. Only digitally though but I found a download.... ;)

AND in a surprise attack on general release procedures they released a new single called Talons! ACE!

They're being very spontaneous with their music and not thinking too hard. Just doing what they love and naysayers be damned!

2:59am: 3AM
Damn.

Late.

Music.

Friend.

Fun.

Peace.

Love.

Hope.

8:09pm: Life is....
Fucked up.

Weird.

Never what I expect.

Random.

Surprising.

Enjoyable (even though I am prone to extreme bouts of depression).

And other stuff too but I can't think of good words to use.

4:20pm: Why?
It was all going so well and then....

Splat.

Some things just aren't meant for me I guess.

So the world can die and in the tumult I shall take the opportunity to hack whatever god there is into tiny little pieces so that they never do this to anyone ever again.

Screw destiny. This story is mine to write.

1:48pm: My three days off
Ah, good ol' flu. Or at least I think it's flu.

Whatever it is it involves: sneezing, coughing, chills, fever, body aches (headaches included) and....what else can I complain about? Oh, right, dizziness.

Now most people would probably let illness get them down. Not me!

I took the time off to relax, think about a few things, contemplate, reflect and just have a great time and not worry about a thing. Being sick is fantastic.

One point of contemplation has been the concept of FRIENDS. It seems to me that the whole FRIENDS thing (no, not the tv show) is taken way too lightly by most.

But I think that shall be all for I am usually in a different vein of thought to others and it almost always ends up in an argument of some sort.

Revelations are great. And flu.

*returns to sickness*